As I started to learn more about religion at school and in history class, I realised it was hypocritical – I saw it being about wars, conquering, bloodshed and rape, control, and very judgemental towards people personally. All of this never made sense to a deep part of me, and I thought I want no part of institutionalised religion.
From when I was very young, God was portrayed to me as someone who is almighty, someone who judges you, someone you have to look up to and worship. I have always been wary of anyone who is on a pedestal, by holding them as an authority over me without understanding why, it felt like I would be giving my power away, and in this instance giving my power away to someone that no one had answers about or seemed to know much about.
Deep inside I have always known we are all equal, and anything less than that is not true for me.
Corpus Hermeticum 11:20
I have always had a deep love of nature and how I feel when connected to nature.
Could nature simply be a reflection of the amazingness we come from, and could its purpose simply be to support us to return to who we truly are?
Do I have a relationship with God? The answer to this question has to be not really, and at the same time, yes to a degree, and reading this now I realise that I don’t often fully appreciate that I could have a deeply beautiful relationship with God without associating God with an Institutionalised religion.
What if God is love, and we too are love, only most of us have chosen to not live that love in full, and by building a relationship first with ourselves based on love, that we are building a relationship with God?
An Open Letter to Humanity, p 475
Since I was young my connection with God has been through nature, and in more recent years also through symbolism.
Today I am building and deepening my love for myself, and this will in-turn support me to build a deeper relationship with my inner-essence and therefore my relationship with Divinity or God.
God is love and we too are that love – by living in a truly loving way we can embody love and be that love for all others.